1st guitar lesson.

Wee. . . .
I get my guitar today.
blue color guitar.
haha. very handsome.
my teacher name Paul do some introduction to us about guitar.
on how to hold the guitar, girls got girls post and boys have their own post.
so the left hand finger shouldn't have long nail.
many of us cut our nail on the spot, and let Paul check.
lol....what a funny man.
After that we have some finger practice, the chromatic scale.
for 1 hour.T.T.
Found out my finger is so cacat, cannot listen to my order.
cant really point the correct string,
hmm....nvm,I wont give up!
Thats it for today.

Tae yang !

It's been so long I din't meet Tae yang in my dream again.
Maybe because I had change my desktop photo into big bang and not him.
So I change my wallpaper already.
hope I can dream of him tonight.XD

Stalker.

So today is the 1st weekend with myself.

decided to wake up early in the morning and go for jog. 

of course the plan is failed.haha!

woke up 12 in the afternoon. 

Today is special because the 1st thing I did wasn't switch on my computer. 

Yeah, hope I can manage not to count on my computer so often in my life. 

I want to have some changes.

I studied bio because the mid-term test is coming,

the date is confirmed which is next Wednesday. 

After that, I clean my bathroom. 

and turn on my computer on 3 or 4pm. 

Not that remember what time I actually turn it on. 

nvm, I din't turn it on to have fun. 

I print tutorial question.

and did some cleanup

After manage to finish my bio and math tutorial, 

then I started my journey to Tae Yang's life.

haha, http://alwaystaeyang.wordpress.com

Started to stalk him from 6.15 til...

Still don't know til what time..

cause I'm still stalking him.

waiting his video to load, that's why I'm here.

Found a very sexy photo of 

him.>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

sexy right? or spicy?

yum!XD

Am I acting weird?

Am I?
what can I tel?
I'm getting to know more about myself, the true me.
or maybe not the true me.
maybe I changed.
I'm cruel now.
I solve problem with violence.
WHAT?
nah! I won't hit you,
don't scare.
For your information, I hide my feelings very well.
I don't tell people much about how I feel.
I just hide it, hide it to myself.
when it's full, my tears will fall at night.
and I'll scream silently.
That's why I can't have a roommate, because I can't make a sound
when I'm mad.
I want to scream loudly!
For now, everything changed.
yea! change, the only thing remain is I'm still hiding my feelings.
I'll just hit something, throw things .
OR imagine that I'm hitting people.
I hope I could stop this imagination one day...
Before it truly happen to my real life.
because...
Everything change.....
plz dun offend me.
I'm begging you for not getting yourself into trouble .
Or ending my life.
thanks.

sore throat

Sore throat again, I'm so painful.

this is the consequences after eating 1 full pack of french fries. 

yea,kongsi money with my sis and we brought a pack of french fries. 

I had abit of sore throat already, but I still eat it. 

and now....sore throat so badly!

I can't even talk. 

I'm not going to school today.

why? due to my sore throat?

yea, it is. 

And I'm having abit of flu,so it is better for me nt to

attend my class. 

Since I already ask my friend to sign for me . 

I'm am suffering!! argh!! can someone bring me to doctor now?

I don't want to cycle to the clinic, the weather is hot now!

I might faint when I'm almost reach the clinic. 

T.T

I know I shouldn't skip class, but

I have to make sure that I attend tmr class,since tmr class is much more important. 

so I made this sacrifice,I'm not going to talk today. 

I din't open my mouth to talk for 15 hours already ,lets make it 24 hours++

The end~

The next Malaysian top superhero

Well, I had "a" weird dream last night.
My friend came my house to play ping pong with me.
And I tried to catch the ball, but I couldn't catch it.
I'm so pissed, that's embarrassed.
And it suddenly jump to another scene.
I'm with some1 in a hall,judging people.
Yea,judging people who want to be the next Malaysian top superhero.
LOL.
I can't believe it, who comes out with this stupid idea?
and I'm the judge. Damn stupid.
after the audition.
jump scene again.
Many people is playing on the beach.
well, I said playing because.....
Actually everyone is waiting for the Tsunami.XD
and see who can survive.
Yeah!! What a dream ?!
Did I survive? yea! cause later I jump into another scene again.
There are some hot girls, and the ....
I'm so stupid ,I'm so stupid, I'm so stupid in love~~~~
My alarm rang! thats big bang (I'm so stupid ) ringtone.
The end.~~

PS: my dearly ym ,if you're reading this.plz cook porridge for me tmr.T.T
I don't have voice, sore throat jor.thx.

If I die before tmr

"If tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see,
if the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
for all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
so much left yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible,
that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad;
I thought of all that we shared,
and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
just even for a while,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home,
when God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
and all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past,
but here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each day is the same way,
there's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true,
though there were times you did some things,
you knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven,
and now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand,
and share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
for every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart "

May God watch over you and your family now and always. There is no
right time to do the wrong thing. . . there is no wrong time to tell
someone you care.





written by saif khan

8/6 hepi birthday .I'm 19! finally~

I love the present -

thx to pkm,ym,shook ling and shireen.

I reli love tis present.

and especially the card.

the decoration is so nice,

I believe tat it tooks alot of time to design it so nicely.

thx for the card, and photo of big bang!XD

and of course the album!

love you all,muacks!

thx for ym for coming my house to celebrate my birthday too.

ngek ngek.XD