Thursday, April 7, 2011

Insecure

I feel insecure here, everything is like a dream.Things could chg upside down suddenly.
Hearing my fren talked about the others matter(negative), reli making me worried.
We were like close fren yesterday.......
Mayb one day u wil treat me like the way u treat the others, I have trauma on tat.
This reli pissing me off.
YOU look at me with the doubts in ur eyes reli making me freak out.
Making me felt tat I'm a LIER to u .
I felt insecure even though u're jz by my side talking about the other's matter.
I felt insecure after we end the conversation.( mayb I said smth wrong)
I felt insecure and lonely inside. . .( I'm nt being myself/scare to be myself)
Can someone save me here?
plz....
I'm scare to abandon by the others. . .
Although this is nt the 1st time....
I dun wan to abandon by the others again,
I'm scare.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Born this way lyrics.



















Intro:
It doesn't matter if you love him, or capital H-I-M
Just put your paws up
'Cause you were born this way, baby

Verse:
My mama told me when I was young
We are all born superstars
She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on
In the glass of her boudoir
"There's nothin wrong with lovin who you are"
She said, "'cause he made you perfect, babe"
"So hold your head up girl and you'll go far,
Listen to me when I say"

Chorus:
I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Don't hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way

Post-chorus:
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby, I was born this way
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way

Don't be a drag - just be a queen
Don't be a drag - just be a queen
Don't be a drag - just be a queen
Don't be!
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/l/lady_gaga/born_this_way.html ]
Verse:
Give yourself prudence
And love your friends
Subway kid, rejoice your truth
In the religion of the insecure
I must be myself, respect my youth
A different lover is not a sin
Believe capital H-I-M (hey hey hey)
I love my life I love this record and
Mi amore vole fe yah (love needs faith)

Repeat chorus + post-chorus

Bridge:
Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Whether you're broke or evergreen
You're black, white, beige, chola descent
You're lebanese, you're orient
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied, or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'Cause baby you were born this way
No matter gay, straight, or bi,
Lesbian, transgendered life
I'm on the right track baby
I was born to survive
No matter black, white or beige
Chola or orient made
I'm on the right track baby
I was born to be brave

Repeat chorus + post-chorus

Outro/refrain:
I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!

I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!


Saturday, March 26, 2011

Do the same thing everyday~~

Everyday seems like the same:
Weekday-
Go to school
Do hmwk
Study
on9
sleep.
Weekend-
Do hmwk 
on9
sleep.
That's why I have nothing to tell about my daily life, that's why I seldom update my blog about my daily life. 
I update my my blog with dream,yeah!!!
I have different dream everyday, although there are almost the same.(somebody wanna kill me)
But it happen in the different place,different time, different ppl. 
Nt like my daily life, do the same thing, meet the same person. 
Haiz...what a bored life, wondering why AM I living for??
I'm going to make some changes!!!!
yea, chg eveything once I move into single room!!
I WILL!!


Friday, March 25, 2011

Justin Bieber met his wax model

Yea,there is a waxwork model of Justin Bieber in the Madame Tussaudes museum in London.
OMG! He is so damn popular ,I knw.
But tats nt the point.
When  I first saw the photo, I've been wondering what's inside his pocket.why it look so big?
seems like a lot of cash is inside.XD
hehe, I knw I'm weird. 
Here is the photo>>>>>

Bruno Mars!!

I love his song, his style and absolutely his voice!!
I felt so dissapointed when I read this http://galaxieblog.com.my/
Bruno Mars has definitely gone from strength to strength in the past one year. There's the No. 1 singles, the hit album and the seven Grammy nominations (eventually he won one Grammy for  Best Male Pop Vocal Performance for Just the Way You Are)
"The last few months, it's been a rocket... to Mars!" the singer told GQ.
But fame was nearly shortlived for Bruno whose real name is Peter Gene Hernandez. Last September, he was busted for cocaine posession in Las Vegas. Bruno has moved on but not without learning a good lesson.
"I'm not gonna preach that I'm a role model. I'm a f***ing musician! But I've learned people are watching, so don't do nothing stupid."
That would be a good idea, Bruno.

Hope he won't try this again.  I will always support 
                                                                                                                you Bruno Mars.TAKE CARE

Depression

We all go through ups and downs in our mood. Sadness is a normal reaction to life’s struggles, setbacks, and disappointments. Many people use the word “depression” to explain these kinds of feelings, but depression is much more than just sadness.
Some people describe depression as “living in a black hole” or having a feeling of impending doom. However, some depressed people don't feel sad at all—instead, they feel lifeless, empty, and apathetic.
Whatever the symptoms, depression is different from normal sadness in that it engulfs your day-to-day life, interfering with your ability to work, study, eat, sleep, and have fun. The feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and worthlessness are intense and unrelenting, with little, if any, relief.

  • Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.
  • Loss of interest in daily activities.  No interest in former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex. You’ve lost your ability to feel joy and pleasure.
  • Appetite or weight changes. Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.
  • Sleep changes. Either insomnia, especially waking in the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).
  • Irritability or restlessness. Feeling agitated, restless, or on edge. Your tolerance level is low; everything and everyone gets on your nerves.
  • Loss of energy. Feeling fatigued, sluggish, and physically drained. Your whole body may feel heavy, and even small tasks are exhausting or take longer to complete.
  • Self-loathing. Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. You harshly criticize yourself for perceived faults and mistakes.
  • Concentration problems. Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things.
  • Unexplained aches and pains. An increase in physical complaints such as headaches, back pain, aching muscles, and stomach pain.
Well, I post this because some of my fren told me she felt very depress.
I feel depress also recently.
Jz wanted to share this, 
if u're nt sure u're depress ,here is a depression test.http://depression.about.com/cs/diagnosis/l/bldepscreenquiz.htm

Depression is a major risk factor for suicide. The deep despair and hopelessness that goes along with depression can make suicide feel like the only way to escape the pain. Thoughts of death or suicide are a serious symptom of depression, so take any suicidal talk or behavior seriously. It's not just a warning sign that the person is thinking about suicide: it's a cry for help.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Another night another dream.



I had another night on Thursday night.
A naked dream:
Someone came my hse in my dream, so I serve her with a cup of tea. 
After serving her a tea, I saw she smile. 
Then I look back to myself. I'm naked. 
I felt ashame but I said the weather is hot, tats why I'm naked. 
Then I woke up. 
what does a naked dream meant?
here it it:
So you are going about your normal routine - going to work, waiting for the bus, or just walking down the street when you suddenly realize that you are naked. Finding yourself completely naked in your dream is quite a common experience. Nudity may symbolize a variety of things depending on your real life situation.
Dreaming that you are naked is not a fear that you will forget to wear clothes one day.
These dreams are symbolic of other feelings and may reflect your feelings of vulnerability, shamefulness and being exposed in some embarrassing way. You may be hiding something and have a fear that people can nevertheless see right through you. You cannot conceal your real nature from others and are feeling ashamed in some way. You are afraid that a mistake that you have made or a misjudgment might be revealed to your peers. Thus, your insecurities are manifesting in a dream. Clothes are a means of concealment and without them; we feel that everything is hanging out for all to see. If you are in a new relationship, you may have some fears or apprehension in revealing your true feelings. You may exhibit fears of being ridiculed and disgraced.
Nudity also symbolizes being caught off guard. Finding yourself naked at work or in a classroom may signify that you are unprepared for a project at work or school. You may be uninformed in making a well-formed decision. With all eyes on you, you have this fear of having some deed brought to public attention. You fear that people will see through your true self and you will be exposed as a fraud or a phoney.
Perhaps you are naked, but no one seems to notice. This implies that your fears are unnecessary or unfounded. You may be over-exaggerating the situation. Nobody will notice but you and this dream may serve to reassure you. On the other hand, this dream may express you desire (and failure) to be noticed. To dream that you feel no embarrassment or shame in your nakedness implies unrestricted freedom. A new sense of honesty, openness, and a carefree nature.