Happy holiday!

First of all, I'm still alive.Thanks for worrying.haha.

I din't update my blog ,it doesn't mean I'm dead.

so I'm kinda "enjoying" my sem break holiday. 

Today I counted how many days of holiday I have, >>36 days. 

which means 5 weeks + 1 day.

wow!But 16 had passed, still left 20 days.

Luckily , I found a job. 

I'm going to work as a promoter for 14 days starting from tmr.

hah! which means after I finished my worked, I still left 6 days.

Wee....Can't wait for it.. 

nah, I don't mean that I can't wait for the holiday to end. 

What I  meant was can't wait to spend the money I earn .ngek ngek. 

I want to buy myself many a give as reward for finishing my foundation studies. 

You should do that for yourself too.

Buy yourself a give after you achieve a target. 

yea, I know. You think this is what people do when they have no friends to buy them a give right?

nah! Whatever, I'm Happy. 

Exam result

The exam result is going out tmr .
I hope I can get the result I want.
can't even sleep well for tis few weeks.
argh!!!

Just In case you don't know

I'm so sorry that I couldn't go to penang with you all.
the reason is....
I might fail for my exam.
so the relationship is.....
if I fail I have to get back to school which means I don't have 3 weeks sem break, which means that I don't have the extra money to go for the vacation.
Cause I need the money for daily expenses, since I'm nt having the holiday.

Sincerely apologize by:
yl

suicide

I just finished my thermodynamics exam.
Started to worry, so I went online and check on my answer.
For your information, I only have to get 34marks out of 100 marks in order to pass this subject.
34 out of 100,easy huh?
yea, I thought so.
After searching online, and finish checking my marks.
The max marks I can get is only 36.
well, this doesn't mean that I can get exactly 36 marks, teacher marks referring to their marking scheme ,and I marks by referring my marking scheme. It is different.
such a tragedy.
after studying in this university, I feel so stupid.
I feel useless, I'm in sem 4 now.
my friends are in degree right now.
This is the 2nd time I take this subject.
which means this is a repeated paper.
And I still can't pass it.
such a shame.
I did a lot of careless mistake.
and I lost all the marks.
Now I understand why people kill them self due to stress.
Cause I want to do it too. . . .
Actually the main problem I want to suicide is not because of I'm stupid, I did nth well.
It's just I don't know how to face all my friends, face problem ,u know?
if you give me a chance to leave here and go to another place to study,
I won't think about suicide anymore.
why do I care about what my friend think about me so much?
if they are so called "friend", they should support me and don't look down on me right?
hm...yea, ok.
I'm fine now. back to study.
bye.

no mood to study

I have test tmr but I don't have the mood to study.
I believe everyone faces this problem before too.
so I google , and I found this.
http://www.studyskillsblog.com/tips-on-getting-your-mood-to-study/

So I'm going to try it on.
hope its works.
u may try it too.
gud luck!

somebody to love

Recently,
I try to find a lover around me.
Try to find ppl to concern about me.
yea, ppl surrounding concern about me.
But I don't know why I still don't feel enough.
I want more, more love.
I even chat with people in fb.
erm, nt stranger.
They are ppl I know in my uni.
I meant those guy are studying in the same school with me.
yea, of course, I din't get much attention/response from them.
the reason is I'm nt an attractive girl.
argh! I don't know when I can stop this s2p thing.
feel so embarrassed and cheap. Yuck!
What I can say is
I'm in the mood of I need somebody to love.
feel like singing, I need somebody to love, do u hear me?
I need somebody to love,somebody to love.....

somebody please rescue me. 

Meow~

Father's daughter

Someone frighten me so I can't sleep last night.
So I decided to call my family to talk.
Its 12am +
The 1st one I called is YYY.
she switched off her phone already.
Then I decided to call my house number.
nobody picked up.
Lastly I called YYM's phone.
Finally someone pick up the phone.
I was surprised because the one who picked up the phone is not my sister,
my dad is the one who pick up.
DAD: helllllllo?(sounds like woke up from dream)
Me: pa?
DAD: yes, why u're still awake? miss your boyfren(lol,still can jk while he is sleepy)
Me: pa, I tell you har, I did..........(then I explain why I cant sleep)
DAD: Ic, so you shud accept the consequences coz you've grown up already.
Me: O....
DAD: don't repeat what you've done wrong,think b4 you action.
Me: O.
DAD:k, its late already, go to sleep ,don't think too much.
Me: O,ok,bye bye.

I'm surprised my dad would actually talk to me and asked me what happen after he'v been woken up by me.
touched....touched.....
my tears dropped while I'm talking to him, it's been so long that I din't tell him what's happening around me.
knowing my father spending her dreaming time for me, this this......
I don't knw how to describe the feeling.
I'm just happy.
ha! I'm still my father's daughter, no matter how old I am and where I am.