Monday, September 5, 2011
I just finished my thermodynamics exam.
Started to worry, so I went online and check on my answer.
For your information, I only have to get 34marks out of 100 marks in order to pass this subject.
34 out of 100,easy huh?
yea, I thought so.
After searching online, and finish checking my marks.
The max marks I can get is only 36.
well, this doesn't mean that I can get exactly 36 marks, teacher marks referring to their marking scheme ,and I marks by referring my marking scheme. It is different.
such a tragedy.
after studying in this university, I feel so stupid.
I feel useless, I'm in sem 4 now.
my friends are in degree right now.
This is the 2nd time I take this subject.
which means this is a repeated paper.
And I still can't pass it.
such a shame.
I did a lot of careless mistake.
and I lost all the marks.
Now I understand why people kill them self due to stress.
Cause I want to do it too. . . .
Actually the main problem I want to suicide is not because of I'm stupid, I did nth well.
It's just I don't know how to face all my friends, face problem ,u know?
if you give me a chance to leave here and go to another place to study,
I won't think about suicide anymore.
why do I care about what my friend think about me so much?
if they are so called "friend", they should support me and don't look down on me right?
I'm fine now. back to study.